we're headed for destruction.

at marie's.

2006-02-04T15:59:47Z

yeahhh i'm at marie's aaand shes with rendon on the couch.

so i'm just chilling with the computer. i'm pretty sure the dog has something she shouldn't but whatever.

i'm getting new bras today. haha.

ewww my jeans smell like bad. like, smoke. we baked out rendon's car last night.

i had a dream the other night where marie and i were snorting vicodins.

it was ill.

dfkjfgjhk

2006-02-03T02:29:39Z

tomorrow is my dad's birthday.

he's going to be forty-five.

pretty old.

i forgot my livejournal password like, five times.

haha.

subject

2006-01-13T02:59:20Z

pro status, nig.

WHAT I GOT FOR CHRISTMAS.

2005-12-25T19:23:22Z

i got:

photoshop<3
clothes
more clothes
stay what you are
tell all your friends
a baby doll haha
the Da Vinci code
lots of jewelry.
a backdrop<3
a fairy thing
new incense
make up
i think thats about it.

merry christmas!

stolen.

2005-12-06T22:41:29Z

The Itunes survey
Open iTunes/iPod or Windows Media Player to answer the following. Go to your library. Answer, no matter how embarrasing it is.

How many songs: 518

Sort by song title:
First Song: "...Best in Mexico" by He Is Legend
Last Song: "Your Song" by Jamisonparker

Sort by time:
Shortest Song: "Raleigh (Soliloquy pt. V)" by Unwritten Law, 13 seconds
Longest Song: "Dear Jamie...Sincerely Me" by HelloGoobye, 8 minutes, 34 seconds.

Sort by album:
First Song: "Belt" ...Is a Real Boy by Say Anything
Last Song: "Soco Amaretto Lime" Your Favorite Weapon by Brand New

Top Five Most Played Songs:
1 "Build God, Then We'll Talk" by Panic! At the Disco
2 "Theres A Good Reason These Tables Are Numbered, Honey, You Just Haven't Thought of it Yet" by Panic! At the Disco
3 "Firefly" by Saves the Day
4 "Debussie" by Daphne Loves Derby
5 "Soundtrack for Our Movie" by Mae

First song that comes up on Shuffle:
So Beautiful by Dashboard Confessional

Search ....
"sex", how many songs come up? 2

"death", how many songs come up? 12

"love", how many songs come up? 19

"you", how many songs come up? 90

been a while.

2005-12-06T22:19:51Z

i have a crush on this boy.

i don't know if its good or not, considering i have a boyfriend.

i may get suspended for not going to detention last week but honestly, who gives a shit? not colleges.

its fucking cold.

christmas is in 18 days.

i don't hang out with kat anymore. i think she hates me.

i do far too many drugs and i haven't quit smoking cigarettes just yet.

i have a pyschologist. her name is joanne something.

i love life.

ohh shit.

2005-10-03T23:05:07Z

okay so. heres how my weekend went.

saturday, i woke up and went shopping and blahblahblah.
theennnn i got ready for homecoming. and bevers came over. and we were off to the high school!
we danced danced danced. the weird homecoming king danced with liz mormile. haha. and some other ugly guy. and this OTHER weird guy kept asking me to dance. but like he didn't know how. and he smelled so i was like "umm i'm busy with kat."
so then, kat's friend amy comes up and shes like crazy drunk and shes like "COME TO THIS PARTY LATER"
sooo its later. and we're at the party. and we're drunk. we stole someones camera. kim corcoran? that was the name on it. but we were too drunk to notice. haha. and OMIGOSH there was this girl and she got really bad alcohol poisoning. and she like DIED. they have to do the zappy thing to make her heart work.

shes not invited to the next party
because apparently she does it ALL the time.

anyway, this kid tom? gave me a clove. and i've never had one. but i heard they're awful for you. it made my tongue numb. and thennn me and kat walked home because the party was right around the corner from my house. and i had drunk dialed phil. and my boyfriend. haha. i don't remember much of the boyfriend conversation.
AND in addition to what we drank at the party, me and bevers drank more at my house.

sunday, kat left at some ungodly hour. and i woke up at like 9:30 and i was all hungover and stuff. but i took some pills and was forced to go get bagels. thennnn later on. i took these amazing pictures of johanna. and whatever. no one cares about sundays.

okay bye!
<3

P.S. PATRICK COMES HOME IN 2 WEEKS AND FOUR DAYS.
AHUASKHFHJDFGHF!
:D :D :D :D

in regards to spirit week.

2005-09-29T00:49:09Z

KatsHavok: we're so school pride
KatsHavok: WHOOO GOO HUNTING- ahfuckit.

kat beavers is my favortie. perhaps i'll cut gym with her again tomorrow?
<3

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2005-09-20T03:22:32Z

tired.
scared.
someone save me.
<3

iiiiiiii

2005-09-17T21:43:14Z

remembered what my old livejournal was. and took the code.
tehe.
its thundering and i'm scared.

survey? mhm.

2005-09-17T21:18:53Z

Firsts.
First best friend: umm. carolyn molenhoff!
First car: noo not yet.
First date: i think. i went. to a movie. but i don't remember.
First screen name: um. something about flowers. i was in 4th grade.
First self purchased CD: i dunno.
First pets: my first puppy ever was cobbler. he was an adorable beagle but he was baaad.
First piercing/tattoo: my ears. i was 7.
First musician you remember hearing in your house: the grateful dead.

LASTS.
Last cigarette: um. a few weeks ago. this quitting thing is hard.
Last car ride: like an hour ago.
Last kiss: my birfday. =(
Last good cry: monday. everyone was so miserable. it made me cry.
Last library book checked out: i have no idea.
Last movie seen: um. i don't know.
Last beverage drank: i'm drinking a vitamin water.
Last food consumed: subway
Last crush: patrick
Last phone call: george
Last time showered: last night
Last shoes worn: the sparkley ones.
Last cd played: bayside
Last item bought: vitamin water.
Last annoyance: um. an IM.
Last disappointment: snkdshbjf.
Last shirt worn: i dont knowww. a white tank top.
Last website visited: myspace.
What color socks are you wearing? none.
What color of underwear are you wearing? umm. polka dots!
What's under your bed? everything.
What time did you wake up today? early.

FUTURE
where do you want to go? to sleep.
What is your career going to be? photographer or hair dresser.
Where are you going to live? here or cali or europe.
How many kids do you want? 2.
What kind of car(s): a BMW orrr a mustang convertable. :D

CURRENT
Current mood: nervous.
Current music: baysiide.
Current taste: vitamin water.
Current hair: messy
Current clothes: jeans and a shirt.
Current annoyance(s): nothing.
Current desktop picture: um. a pretty design that kean made for me.
Current book: i just finished one.
Current color of toenails: hot pink.
Current hate: humidity

Directions:(x) - you've done
(_) - you haven't done

(x) been drunk
(x) been high
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
(_) crashed a friend's car
(_) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been dumped
(_) been fired or laid off
(_) been in a fist fight
(x) snuck out of my parent's house
(_) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
(_) ever dated someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
(_) been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
(_) stole something from my job
(_) celebrated new years in time square
( ) gone on a blind date
(_) had a crush on a teacher
(_) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
(x) been to Europe
(x) skipped school
(x)cut myself on purpose
(_) been married
(_) gotten divorced
(_) had children
(_) seen someone die.
(_) been to Africa.
(_) Punched a friend
(_)Been to Canada
(_) Been to Mexico
(x)Been on a plane
(x)Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
(_) Thrown up in a bar
(_) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) Eaten Sushi
(x)Been Snowboarding
(x) Met someone in person from the internet
(x)Been moshing at a concert
(_) had real feelings for someone you knew only online
(_) been in an abusive relationship
(_) been pregnant or got someone pregnant
(_) lost a child
(_) gone to college
(_) graduated college, community
(_) tried killing yourself
(x) taken painkillers
(xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx) love someone or miss someone right now <3

UNIQUE
1. Nervous Habits? tap my foot or pretend to tap a cigarette.
2. Are you double jointed? nope.
3. Can you roll your tongue? yes.
4. Can you raise one eyebrow at a time? yes.
5. Can you blow spit bubble? haha yes!
6. Can you cross your eyes? mhm.
7. Tattoos? i wish.
8. Piercings and where? yes. my ears.
9. Do you make your bed daily? haha no.

-- CLOTHES --
10. Which shoe goes on first? my right one! i guess.
11. Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone? of course i have.
12. On the average, how much money do you carry in your wallet? it depends on if i have money.
13. What jewelry do you wear 24/7? earrings.
14. Favorite piece of clothing? hollister polos.

-- FOOD --
15. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? twirl it.
16. Have you ever eaten Spam? ew no.
17. Favorite ice cream flavor? choclate or strawberry.
18. How many cereals in your cabinet? i duno.
19. What's your favourite beverage? vitamin water.
20. What's your favorite restaurant? mushsahsbhasdino. haha. some sushi place in town.
21. Do you cook? i can make pasta. and toast.

-- GROOMING --
22. How often do you brush your teeth? 2 times a day.
23. Hair drying method? naturally. or if i'm in a hurry i blow dry it.
24. Have you ever colored/highlighted your hair? oh yes.

-- MANNERS --
25. Do you swear? yes.
26. Do you ever spit? only when i'm drunk and smoking.

-- WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE --
27. Animal? one that doesn't shed.
28. Food? sushi
29. Months? september because of my birfday aand october.
30. Day? friday.
31. Favorite Cartoon Character? um. i don't know.
32. Shoe Brand? ii duno. i just pick out the cutest ones.
33. Subject in school? photography.
34. Color? hm. pink.
35. Sport? i don't like sports, really.
36. TV show? porn.

-- IN AND AROUND --
41. The CD player? dskfhbf. i haven't listened to my stereo in a while. so theres nothing in there.
42. Person you talk most on the phone with? patrick
43. Ever taken a cab? mhm.
44. Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors? haha YES.
45. What color is your bedroom? red.
46. Do you use an alarm clock? i used to.
47. Window seat or aisle? winodw seat.

-- LA LA LAND --
48. What's your sleeping position? my side.
49. Even in hot weather do you use a blanket? yes. it keeps the ickies away.
50. Do you snore? no.
51. Do you sleepwalk? no
52. Do you talk in your sleep? when i was little i giggled in my sleep.
53. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? no.
54. How about with the light on? hehe yes. i'm afraid of the dark.
55. Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on? sometimes. but i don't mean to.

T or F or S(sometimes)
you cook your own dinner: s
you do your own chores: f
your parents still give you money for things: t
you're gay: f
you walk around barefoot indoors most of the time: t
you got laid today: i wish.
you like beef jerky: f
your 1st car was new:
you own more than one brush: t
your favorite color is red: f
you plan on never going to college: f
you're completely broke right now: f
you never shop at the mall: f
everyone compliments you on your clothes: t
you're happy with your hair: s
you own 3 dogs: t
you spend your money wisely: f
you're always making new friends: s
you like to swim: t
you get bored taking a shower: f
you're patient: s

( ) I've Never Been Drunk
( ) I've Never Smoked Pot
( ) I've Never Kissed A Member Of The Opposite Sex
( ) I've Never Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
(x) I've Never Crashed A Friend's Car
(x) I've Never Been To Japan
( ) Ive Never Been In A Taxi
( ) I've Never Been In Love
(x) I've Never Had Sex In Public
( ) I've Never Been Dumped
(x) I've Never Done Cocaine
( ) I've Never Shoplifted
(x) I've Never Been Fired
(x) I've Never Been In A Fist Fight
(x) I've Never Had Group Intercourse
( ) I've Never Snuck Out Of My Parent's House
(x) I've Never Been Tied Up
(x) I've Never Been Caught Masturbating
( ) I've Never Regretted Having Sex With Someone
(x) I've Never Been Arrested
( ) I've Never Made Out With A Stranger
(x) I've Never Stolen Something From My Job
(x) I've Never Celebrated New Years In Time Square
(x) I've Never Gone On A Blind Date
( ) I've Never Lied To A Friend
(x) I've Never Had A Crush On A Teacher
(x) I've Never Celebrated Mardi-Gras In New Orleans
( ) I've Never Been To Europe
( ) I've Never Skipped School
(x) I've Never Slept With A Co-Worker
(x) I've Never Had Sex At The Office
(x) I've Never Been Married
(x) I've Never Been Divorced
( ) I've Never Had Sex With More Than One Person Within The Same Week
(x) I've Never Posed Nude
(x) I've Never Gotten Someone Drunk Just To Have Sex With Them
(x) I've Never Killed Anyone
(x) I've Never Received Scars From My Sex Partner
(x) I've Never Thrown Up In A Bar
(x) I've Never Purposely Set A Part Of Myself On Fire
( ) I've Never Eaten Sushi
( ) I've Never Been Snowboarding
( ) i've never had sex
( ) I've Never Had Sex At A Friend's House While They Were Throwing A Party
(x) I've Never Had Sex In A Dressing Room
( ) I've Never Flashed Anyone.
( ) I've Never Met Anyone From Online.

soo. today is shit.

2005-09-17T19:40:04Z

i have NOTHING to do.
because everyone is at the game and like. i don't really honestly give a shit about the football team so i denied everyone who asked to go with them.
djnfdhbgdg.
<3